Happy Halloweeeeeeeen

I saw many "ghosts" walking on the street tonight, especially at Lan Kwai Fong. A lot of people pretended to be ghost, a lot of people made up not willing to be a ghost. People are to be afraid of ghost, but still huddle together for celebrating ghost.

All these scenes of action was just passing by when I was in the bus on the way back home. Happy Halloween!

Problem solving

Problem has never gone, he likes to visit our R&D every single day. Nobody likes him, but nobody knows how to kick his ass also. People just leave him here for 4 months. I am familiar with him now and notice that he is getting bigger and bigger within this period.

Today, I surprised that another problem just arrived. We've got problemS!

I have tried to find a way to kill them, but the more I think, the more I can't think. I realise that knowledge won't come at once, we can only build it brick by brick to become a gate so call solving.

Learning from others

If you think you are not a smart person, you have to accept that immediately and try to learn from others around you.

When children grow up, they just open the gate and receive any new information from the world. Our brain has a "first come first serve" system, the first idea they get, it means the right to them. If there has no external force to annoy their development during this period, they think that everything they've done is all correct and just live in their own world. Because right means no need to change. Change means wrong.

When I was around 6~10 years old, I had an idea that all the things around me were just temporary. If I turned my head and the object was not within my eye sight, it should be vanished. All the things I had seen only to serve my development. Object showed up in front of me was all a plan.

Life is a journey of learning, if the first idea we have gotten is not the ultimate right, then we have no doubt to accept the false and correct our mind immediately. And how to find the way out is only by our basic knowledge or environment comparsion.

So if people interest to be success but do not have enough basic knowledge to find the right, please learn from others. This is the most simple way for stupid people to success.

Fear

I am addicted on my novel now. May be I am the same person who like to criticize our life, seeking the meaning of justice.

"You know why they attacked you? They were afraid of you."
"Afraid of me?"
"You're a lot bigger than a bat, aren't you? All creatures feel fear."
"Even the scary ones?"
"Especially the scary ones."

I think the meaning of justice is too far away from my stupid knowledge, but I truely agree that I always feel fear on every single NEW thing. When I was hosting a presentation, when I was talking with stranger on the street, when I was sitting in a new german class or when I was travelling overseas and talking with some foreigner, I always felt small in front of them...

Hey, Come on! I am the same size as they are, why I have to feel fear to them. And the most important thing is, I don't look scary at all!

Stock disaster

Today the world market is kept dropping as usual, but Hong Kong market is even more worse. Unbelievable! I still remember our F Hong Kong government promises that no matter how difficult on our economic circumstance, they will ensure our market is in stable. But see! what the F is going on now!

After this few months, I don't feel any fear. I only see chances. I can feel that if I put double or triple effort on my future career, 10 times or 100 times profit can surely be returned.

Batman mania

Today after I woke up from my bed, I started to play the DVD "Batman begins" until 11am. Before I read the novel, I would like to have a quick review on movie's version first to understand more about the background.

I feel the foundation of this story is very strong, it can develop into many different trends, creates a lot of rooms for imagination. That's why the story is so success.

Comic is not just a comic brings us excitement, it can be a prototype for us to learn and understand about our life. We can apply some ideas into our real life or try some new ideas from virtual life. How to write a good story just like how to write your own life.

Nega begins

Today I went to the post office to get a novel "Batman begins" which I ordered from Amazon. When I walked to the post office, a forgotten playground was being found.

Back to around 24 years ago, an innocent child loved to play in this playground with his mom, may be 1~2 times per week. After finished kindergarten, they used to go to the nearest convenient store 7-11 to have some sandwiches or hotdogs and then brought it over there. The playground was small but quiet, protected by some big trees. Although it was beside the road, noise could never reach the playground. Normally the child loved to run and climb allover the playground and his mom just sat aside holding the sandwiches or hotdogs and watching. When the child felt tired, his mom will yell at him for feeding. What's a peaceful memories...

Right now, the playground has changed, the facilities has changed. In the past it was made by wood, some big woods, but now it is all by plastics. I think it's about the safety problem and maintenance problem.

It shows that everything is changing because of many reasons. We don't know the change is good or not, but we cannot stop it. Every single action or movement cannot show the absoluate right or wrong, the final justice is all by our heart.

Change and change, the story keeps going on, Nega begins...

Home is the best

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.

If you follow the alone star, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home.

If your troubles break your strike, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.

when there is only you to blame, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

I wish my dream come true

R&D is supposed the core department in a company, everyone should be smart and highly originated, but why totally different in here?

I don't want to discuss with them anymore, don't really have passion to train those humanized mice anymore...just make sure I've done my job and turn off the air-cond if I am the last one to leave office.

Work has no ended, dream has never stoped, I wish my dream can come true...

I still need a dream

Today when the second new manager came, I can't feel anymore promotion smell for me next year...

Right now the world economic is turn-down, many factories have already bankrupted, but our company still hires two more managers. Ha!

No matter how hard I have done, seems nothing is going to be changed. So, today I decided to leave in a reasonable time, 7:00pm, even though there still is a mess in our R&D. I don't really want to S around with them and suggest any piss of S idea for them, just let them go...

I remember no one won the "mark six lottery" Jackpot last time, the accumulation is around $20,000,000hkd! I think I should spend a night to collect some idea on lucky numbers rather than just work for a non-promotion life. Both are in the same low chance, but the leverage is a huge different.

Oktoberfest

Because I need to carry some samples from China to Hong Kong, after finished my work I can join the Oktoberfest in Macro Polo organized by Lufthansa.

I am not supposed to join this party but just a coincidence, I have this chance again to enjoy all the free delicious foods and beer.

I think a good party don't really need any high-tech equipments for support or any famous band to perform. If the host can drive everyone devote on the party, it will be a good party. Foreigner really can do it. Good job!

After the show, I feel relax but small, I still have a lot of things to learn, chinese!

Work work work

Monday is a lazy day, always has a big repulsion on work...

My brain is not functioned probably. Is it because of the 2hours travel from home to factory or my brain already in a maximum capacity? I really want to know...

Today have no more OT, just back to my room to enjoy my lonely calm night...

Old buddy

Finally I did download all the photos from Japan Tokyo from July this year. There is no reason why my action is so slow, may be the only reason is lazy...

This was the first time I went to Tokyo, no tour, no guide. Everything arranged by myself. It was a very very good experience, just like an adventure. What I replied on was the map and my dependable old buddy, Marky.

The purpose for this trip supposed for our business, we would like to search any kind of potential products for sell. Everyday we woke up at 9am and backed to hotel at almost 12pm. 14hours on the street went through all the retails and wholesales as much as possible. We all went by train, the train system in Tokyo is amazing, it covers a lot of area in Tokyo. But honestly, if no one leads me the way, I think I will get trap in this maze forever...

Everyday we tried to search for business opportunities over there but ended up was just likely more to be a old friend gathering or shopping trip. Everything just an idea without conclusion. But anyway, I still love this trip, because it gives me a lot of time to meet Marky.

Due to workload at the moment, I have less time to call him in Canada. I don't know what he is doing right now, but I hope he is still doing fine. He is a smart creative guy, but sometimes I feel that he always asks for short-cut but lack of long term diligence on a right direction.

You are the man, "North Sup"!

Men's talk

Today Jeremy, Kit and I had a long conversation again to talk about our F unclear life as usual...

We set up the stage for our debate in a chinese restaurant in Mong Kok. I think both of us are getting old now, that's why they get used to go there. In fact, I don't really like to go there because it makes me feel I am old! But the most important things are too noisy over there and really have no interest on "Dim sum" now. I don't know why...

At first, we were teasing around with some low level dirty joke as usual, I love it, it really helps me to release my pressure. Then later on, Kit shared a lot of his experience in China that I had never faced before. Robbers were still everywhere in China, they will just kill you if they are not happy from your donation amount. Polices are not responsible on their job even they know that some robbers are robbing like shopping on the street. Threatening happens everyday everywhere depending on their power and support. Corruption emerged obviously in a company but no one wants to solve it...

The difference is before I know that but I don't really consider this is happened. But now I will count it as my life experience to alert myself. Sometimes, you must agree that the earth keeps rotating even though you just want to stand firmly. The only thing you can do is to find your own way out. But how??

Business is always planned but no action. I need more and more cohesion...

Friday Friday

Happy to run away from my trouble cage.

But sometimes I get headache just because I feel excited to release my pressure or changing my working mode suddenly. Just like tonight...

I really need to learn how to control my emotion.

Am I FAS 2nd?

Lead and drive

Today I did OT until 8:30pm, so many outstanding issues suddenly came up.

I really hate china mice, no matter high class mice or low class mice, they are still mice.

For those low class mice, they would be piss off easily if they are doing something not as their expected, but why they don't piss off on their unexpected life?

For those high class mice, they always tell you they will provide fully support, but end up you still need to teach him what is the meaning of support.

When I was leaving the cage, then had an around 30mins conversation with GM. Although we just talked for a while, but I think he is a really smart and high EQ guy, he taught me a lot of project management skills. Everything is about "Lead and drive", everywhere has mice, only depends on how you drive them...

I agree with him, we smiled to each other, then I left.

Deutsch begins

Man needs target, we cannot just spend our time with meaningless...

After I skip german course almost around half year, this is the time for revenge! I must climb over this obstacle no matter what, I am the MAN of my word!

Of course, the most important thing is after I pass this exam, I can claim back the funding from government about 6000hkd :-#


"Im Moment haette Ich gern mehr Deutsch gelernt, und dann kann ich die Pruefung bestehen"

Another GD busy day

2 pilots are in progress, it makes me exhausted.

Customer left today. Although there still have many works to do, I still off work on time as usual. Ha!

Physically I can relax my body, but mentally my brain are still running rapidly. I really want to switch off my brain as I switch off a TV...

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I just knew that my Grandma from Thailand is not twisted her waist but broke her wrist. So may be I did pray in a wrong position yesterday, I hope that God can understand what I mean and heal her in a correct position. God bless her.

GD busy

Back to the undeveloped factory again.

People in here just follow the procedure without thinking why. They can't even create a X-Y table to drop down some data, but love to blame on me, "Why don't you prepare a table for us, see! what a wasting time here!" Hey, come on! Do you really know what are you doing here? Working is really only for money? Do you have brain? Are you a mouse?

Yes, only mouse accepts to run in a circle without asking why. They just run for run, eat for eat, sleep for sleep and shit for shit...

Right now, I am still in a big cage building some entertainment for china mouses. Right now is around 9:36pm...

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Today I heard that my grandma from Thailand got fall down and twist her waist. She is 70 something year old now, I beg that she can be as healthy and cunning as before.

受過傷, 先知道要堅强; 受委屈, 先會學到原諒.

When the first time I heard this lyric, I really really agree with that.

That means "After you got hurt, you learn to be stronger; after you got grievance, you learn how to forgive."

It is an old lyric but it suddenly flashed in my mind when I was swimming. May be not every people need that experience, but I surely know that I have to learn from this way. Stupid me.

Tonight is kind of cold and windy, not many people swimming there. Long time ago I was really afraid of chilled water, but today I feel that I get used to it. May be I am getting stronger.

After a long weekday

Even I felt so tired when I got back home, I still decided to swim.

Swimming in the water allow me to smash or decompose all the problems in my mind, and then reconstruct a new idea what I really have to do now.

Because I went to the swimming pool right on time at 6:00pm which is the re-opening time, not much people was there. As usual I swam 900m within around 45mins, then I got a nice bath there and back home for dinner.

I don't really want to do much and think much today as this week is really busy, so have a good nite dude.

Where is my home?

One week normally 5 days work but I am not stayed in my home right now...

What a GD thing is, this Saturday I also have to stay in factory due to some outstanding issue. I am still sitting in my F company chair and using my F company notebook to write my F blog, even though right now is 10:57pm at Friday night!

Am I being exiled or am I being merged?

I need F promotion, 20% or...

Work is life or life is work?

No matter how you read it, seem everything is just about work work work...

At 10:00am: Our customer arrived.

At 3:00pm: Luckily the conversation about my topic is not too long, I only took around 30mins to finish it, then I could sneak out from the meeting.

At 4:30pm: After they went through the agenda, total 7 people including myself went to a massage centre for free foot massage.

At 7:00pm: After the free foot massage was done, the massagist woke me up from the dream then started feeling a bit hungry.

At 8:00pm: We had a great free dinner in a pretended high class restaurant. End up I still took my full stomach back.

Work gives us money, work gives us experience, work gives us wide vision, work gives luxury, work gives us life...

But why I still hate work??

Invulnerable vitality

No matter how hard our life is, this is our life.

Right now, the world market is in chaos, but I don't feel any pressure inside, I am in peace at this moment.

The most important thing is to equip ourselves as much as possible, when the chance comes, a stinky black shit also will become a brilliant diamond.

I enjoy to be a stinky sticky black shit now. Yeah!

Autumn

Now weather is going to change, start getting cold now...

I love cold, I hate cold. What a confuse mind again...

The transition from warm to cold really make me depress and weaken. Really don't want to spend energy on working or exercise. So this is may be the reason that all the nutrition are going to my brain and gestate an unstable mind...

Cold is delicate, but cold is emotionless...What a GD world...

How ridiculous it is

I swap the public holiday from tomorrow, so I can have a long weekend...

I forgot since when, I was always asking myself, "What is the ultimate goal in my life?". And the answer is, "To get pay without work". Then I told myself, "Here we go! Aim on your target and strive for it!"

So the day is coming, today I really can get pay without work. I can simply stay at home doing nothing and count my salary increased minute by minute. Ha! It's funny, doing nothing really can earn money without work. But am I happy? No, I don't feel happy. How ridiculous it is!

In the afternoon, I went to Goethe for some information, then I had a tea time in restaurant. Those waiters are working so hard, and I just simply sit aside and watching them. I feel I am being isolated and want to be involved...

May be my ultimate goal has to be changed, "To be involved".

Life has no take-two

Today my mom was just back from Thailand, of course together with a lot of yummy foods, very delicious. Thanks a lot.

My cousin, Namo, is around 4 months. He looks cute and calm, really enjoys his new life which I am very jealous about. He comes to this world later than me around 27 years, I don't feel that he is my cousin but my nephew. I really would love to teach him all what I did learn from this world so that he can have a more charming life. Of course, firstly, he has to understand what I am murmuring now.

A gov. advertisement saying that, "Life has no take-two", it reminds me all the time. So I always ask myself, "Is it the best decision?", "What will happen next if I do this?". I have a feedback system in my brain and it always reviews what I have done in the past, if it is positive, then okay, if negative, my brain will take it out and blame on myself. I don't want to have any wrong decision, but I feel that this feedback system still cannot filter all the failures away, failures still stuck as a part of my life. I think I should take the suggestion from my friend, "If you work on what you always do, then you will get what you always got"... I need a change!

To control or being controlled

I think either one is good for me, just no more looping...

Still have some headache in the morning, just because too much thinking on the stock market. Honestly speaking, there is no productive thinking, just my brain keeps running in a same GD loop...

I always know that I have to overcome this serious problem in my life. But how!?!?

I feel I am over serious on everything, about my family, my career and my love. Really afraid to lose every single thing but always ask for the best, what a F dilemma...

WHY SO SERIOUS!?

Back to battlefield

About the stock market I can't even sleep for few days...

About the stock market I lost money more than I expect...

I understand that I am not smart enough to play this game,

But I have no regret that I back to the battlefield again TODAY.

I did equip myself more than before,

I will get up from where I fell.

This is part of my stupid life, but I know that I am not stupid.