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知否世事常變, 變幻原是永恒

In our whole life, we are trying to learn everything about science, economic, finance, management, communication, social culture, etc...

All these are just about data in static, we may understand in someday. But one thing we are facing every single day is our "reaction of change". The world is changing everyday, someday we may go through the same pattern as our past, but someday we not. Luckily I am not a big man as some superstars, minister or president, I don't have to face some new people everyday, but only deal with some new problems mixing with old problems in scrambled sequence. For example, choosing a best clothes for myself, discussing the technical problems with customer, reporting my work flow for manager. All these problems are just a piece of cake if we have enough time to solve it, but try to imagine if these problems have to have a decision in the next second, what I will do? Can I really make the best decision according to the data in my brain? Can I response the result correctly? All is about our "reaction of change".

知否世事常變, 變幻原是永恒
(Know the world is always changed, change is the thing never be changed)

Cake Napoleon

Just try Cake Napoleon which made by my mom, super yummy and delicious! I think our own dessert/cake restaurant is close to us now~

The Great Pretender

O~Oh ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Preten~ding that I'm doing well~
My need is such I preten~d too much~
I'~m lonely but no one can tell~

O~Oh ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Adrift in a world of my own~
I play~ the game but to my~ real shame~
You left my to dream all alone~

Too real~ is the fee~ling of make believe~
Too real~ when I feel what my heart can't conceive~

O~Oh~O~Oh~O~Oh~O ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Just laugh~ing and gay like a clown~
I seem~s to be what I'm not, you see~
I'm wearing my heart like a crown~
Pre~ten~ding that you're still around~

Too real~ is the fee~ling of make believe~
Too real~ when I feel what my heart can't conceive~

O~Oh~O~Oh~O~Oh~O ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Just laugh~ing and gay like a clown~
I seem~s to be what I'm not, you see~
I'm wearing my heart like a crown~
Pre~ten~ding that you're still~ a~round~

Happeace

Where is my Happeace?

If something I can have easily and do not have to struggle for? Is it my Happeace?

Everyday I can off work as normal without OT, every month I can receive my salary safely without worry about the economic turn-down, every year I can stay with my family for new year without disease...Is it my Happeace?

Should I just satisfy with this?

My cousin

I have 6 cousins so far in the same generation as me, they are all graduated and struggling in this cruel world. But right now, it is not only 6 but 7, because here is the other cousin from Thailand - Namo.

He is half year old right now, curious on everything around him, playing and laughing with people around him. I haven't stay with him, all the information are reported by his mom. I only stayed with him 3days when he was in 3months old. I did feed him and held him during that time, I hope he can memorize it.

I love this picture because it shows the strong feeling of life, announcing to the world, "I am here!" and showing to everyone that, "I have 2 teeth now!"

Everything is on myself

Give up? Or get up?

I believe everything is depended on ourselves, the motivation may come from love, ambition or essential-desire. It is nothing related to God. Yes, we may be wrong sometimes to limit our capability, but once we can shift to our availability, this is because of we try to think more, we try to ask more and also we try to accept more. All the inspiration are coming from our family, our friends, our lover and our environment.

We have some many resources in our world, we can rely on ourselves, our family, our lover or our friends, why you have to believe or rely on something you have never seen once from your real eyes?

Be positive!

Today I read a news about an Australian who has no arms and legs since he was born, only using a little muscle under his left waist which he calls, "chicken leg" to do many activities such as soccer, golf, dance and music. Right now, I don't know exact how old he is, but I think must be older than me. He has completed 2 bachelors about something business administration and finance...

In his face, I can't see any confusion, self-abasement or disappointment. He still claims his "little leg" as a chicken leg, tries to utilize every parts of his body to enjoy his life. Because of his positive spirit, Hong Kong government invited him to visit Hong Kong for cheering up everyone here to overcome the unexpected future from economic turn-down.

It reminds me a saying, "所有過去的都是零, 所有将来的都是重新开始" (All the past are zero, all the future are just the beginning).

Winter

As a snake I want to have a winter sleep also, to have a long long sleep to pass through this horrible year, or may be this gruesome life.

Life is not easy

Just had Friday gathering with my best friends, everything is still complicated...

The more I think, the much more nega will create from my brain...

Really want to have a new different life after I re-open my eyes...

S..L..E..E..P...

Another beer day

After beer always makes me sleepy, sleeeeeeeeeeepy, sleeee...

F conference at 9pm

Off work at 6pm but still have to wait for 3hours for a tele-conference with US customer at 9pm. Without OT pay, without promotion, only has a free dinner outside cannot feed my starving stomach!

You are what you are

Just read an article about Warren Buffett, he drives his own car everywhere and does not have a driver or security people around him. And his reply is, "You are what you are".

Yes. if time allows us to try, we should try to be any role. Try to devote ourselves into any situation and understand the objective for each role.

I still believe that human can excel themselves only because of desire or pessimism or both. 28 year ago, there had a girl who married overseas with a F A stranger. She didn't recognize the language at all, just tried to guess and learn as much as possible, she becomes a fluent chinese speaker now. Nobody helped her on housework, she is a professional housekeeper now. Complained everyday from grandma about the cooking skill, she is an experienced chef now. Brought her son to some new place per week, she is familiar with all the bus routes now. Did not have enough budget for every single meal, she remembers all kind of foods price now. Sufferred with psychopaths from day to night, stayed between peace and chaos, she becomes an agile person now...

Nobody knows what will happen in the future, nobody can expect what will get after diligence.

Seminar about REACH

Registration, Evaluation and Authorization of CHemicals = REACH.

European loves to create this kind of huge wording puzzle and then just passes it to someone to build it. It is about a chemical specialist who understand all the chemical substances using from all the products. They need to clarify all the substances which contain in every products. Not only asking a girl to give you a smile or a kiss, they need the girl naking in front of them and always stand by for special task.

But no choice, we are not smart enough, we have to be the girls and they can be the commanders. But if they still need the service, we of course understand how to make them happy and get benefit from them. Because we are chinese.

By the way, after this morning seminar, I got back to factory by bus but claimed taxi. Around 55rmb bonus for today. :-#

Team Building side effect

The Team Building yesterday was really worthy for everyone. Sometimes when we are working in a big city for a long time, it makes us easy to forget some basic rules we should carry on, the rules of success. All the rules always beside our mouth but not process by our brain.

They taught us basically on three different directions: Cooperation, Motivation and Organization. Everyone seems to understand confidently, but how many person are really using it all in every single minute in parallel? how many person get used to find out their weakness and confront it?

After we all done the missions, we had a graduation ceremony. We totally had 90 somethings people there, we had to climb over a 4m wall which call "Graduation wall". 4 F meters tall man! We are all chinese mice, the average height is around 1.65m, even we stand shoulder by shoulder, it just around 3.3m! I think it is impossible to do it. But end up we all did it! What we have to do is plan and action. Sometimes don't think too much, just do it.

The course is fun, but it still consumed my whole saturday without OT pay and left me a tired body. After having a morning movie with my friend in Mong Kok, I walked around there for a new glasses and new shoes, then I got back to my home for a long nap and until dinner time.

Life is...

F tried

I have spent all day on company Team Building, so F tired today, don't want to have a D talk or D think about it at this moment...

Just bath and sleep...

F Friday night

Tomorrow have to join the Team Building organized by company in China, as though a OT without pay. I don't want to waste my time on traffic, so I decide to stay in cage tonight...

What a F Friday night...

Wisdom tooth

In this few weeks, I feel some painful coming from my left side mouth cavity, especially after eating. I think my wisdom tooth may get trouble on growth. It not aligns with the other teeth but move a bit outward.

I am kind of scare to have a surgery to take off my wisdom tooth, because I heard that is extremely painful. The dentist tried to remove the wisdom tooth as though doing a work out, stepping on the chair and holding the clip by two hands, stretching their body backward and pulling the tooth out from mouth...

I am still not sure is it the reason, I hope that I am wrong, just may be the dirty around my teeth. Therefore, I brush my teeth twice per day right now and take care more on those wisdom teeth. I don't want to lost all the teeth as my grandma. :-#

mid-age life

Off work on schedule, go out with colleagues for dinner with beers, back home and get ready for another working day...

Defines myself again!?

"Wait! You could die."
"At least tell me your name."
"It's not who I am underneath..."
"But what I do that define me."
"Bruce."

So the point is, what I am doing now???

Wake up in the morning at 8am, spend around 10 minutes to brush my teeth, splash my face, pee my wastes and change my clothes, and then hurry to the cage and record my working time which always has 30mins late...

Conceal my emotion and show my serious face to all chinese mice after I sit on my chair, telling them don't ever try to fool me around when I have some order for them. Start having a routine argument with them on different production problems...

Never forget to check with the numbers 1200 and 1700 which provide foods and free time for me. Try my best to off work on time to be a disciplined good staff...

It's not what I do that define me, it's who I am underneath...

Generation Y

Generation Y, sometimes referred to as "Millennials" or "Net Generation", who were born between 1979-1995 and grew up in the 1990s and 2000s.

Generation Y tend to create their own world rather than just work for some other people. They care what they feel, they care what they eat, they care what they love, they care what they own.

Is it good? we don't know.

Forgive and forget

Today I went to a Christian church with my friend. Nothing special, just curious how they save those helpless mortals or want to be one of them being helped.

I haven't stepped into church for almost 10 years. This is also just my second time to step into it. I still remember last time when my friend and I arrived the church, a lot of Christians came to us and then shaked our hands, introducing themselves immediately, putting their pleasant and joyful onto their faces, asking to join them as well next week. It really shocked me. Even though they had a great choir and great speaker, these atmosphere made me didn't want to go there again.

After 10 years later, I visited another Christian organization, not much hand shaking and greeting but I still couldn't enjoy their culture completely. I don't know why, may be there has a fight inside between optimist and pessimist.

A lot of mental education over there. No matter how they pack it up then promote to us, there still have a lot of truth inside we should learn and memorize. Having an exercise in 21 days tries to forgive and forget all the unhappy things, it will become a habit and purify our body from negative mind...I hope it works to me.

Never give up

"What have I done, Alfred? Everything my family...my father built..."
"The Wayne legacy is more than bricks and mortar, sir."
"I thought I could help Gotham," "But I've failed."
"And why do we fall, sir?"
"So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up."
"Still haven't give up on me?"
"Never."

There has many treasures come into our life. Sometimes we can grasp it tightly, sometimes we can't. Sometimes it's big, sometimes it's small. If one day treasures no longer belong to us, don't worry, our spirit has owned the treasure, the treasure of change.

Happy Friday

After a series of suffering, having a gathering with my best friends and bullshit everything I want to say really is the best medicine to heal my soul. Best of the best!

A leisure thursday

Today all the supervisors and managers went to a training course for the new computer system training, only mice were leaving in the cage...

Hat hat hat, mice without supervisor only has one result, work hard in slow motion! Of course I am just a mouse, I have to follow the big trend, I don't like discrimination!

Today the time goes especially fast, work when I want to use my brain, dream when I want to rest, command when I want to show off, leave when I want to go. What's happy thursday!

Define myself?

"Deep, deep down, you may be the same great kid you used to be... but it's not who you are underneath -- it's what you do that defines you."

What we are doing right now is what we are. No complain, no regret. It's all about depend on what we want...

Happy hour

A routine, boring, frustrated and messy working area always makes me depressed. Especially on Monday and Tuesday, seems I come to this world is only as a gear wheel helping the rotation of the earth...I really need a rest and run away from this big machine.

Sometimes I feel I think too much, my brain run too fast, too sensitive on what other people think. It makes my emotion changing in every single minute.

I still remember there has a japanese comic <<幽遊白書>> which I like so much. There had a guy who helped God to kill all the ghost in this world. He thought that he was the righteousness and ghost always was the most corrupt things. One day, something happened to him and realized that from human deep inside also contained the most corrupt things, he couldn't accept that what he was trying to protect just another corruption. After that day he got a mental illness which contained 7 personalities in his mind. 7 personalities provide 7 different point of views for him to find the "ultimate righteousness".

I think 7 personalities is cool, I really want to have that. But the process is very tough, I still far away from it. I really need something to neutralize it now....Happy hour!

Depression

Don't know why so depressed tonight, want to control everything, but not everything under control...

Time flies, but no shine...

Where is my auspicious star

I remember Rooster in this year should be very lucky and charming, but 3/4 of this year is already gone, I still cannot feel any from it.

The auspicious star is still far away from me, or did it pass by with no recognition?

Embrace your worst fear

"To conquer fear you must become fear,"
"You must bask in the fear of other men...and men fear most what they cannot see."
"It is not enough to be a man,"
"You have to become an idea...a terrible thought...a wraith---"
"Embrace your worst fear..."

This is totally the idea of Sadism & Masochism. But don't you think this is just what we are doing in our life?

If we want to be muscular, we need to stretch our muscle strongly.
If we want to be an oriented-person, we need to control our emotion carefully.
If we want to be knowledgable, we need to study hard.
If we want to be rich, we need to work tough.
If we want to be survived, we need to engulf another creature ruthlessly.

No pain, no gain.

We don't have choice, Mr. S. M. Wong.