29 Years old now...

Time flies, can't believe I am 29 years old now...still thinking I am just acting like a little kid...

Sometime we should, and must be, take a break to taste and learn what we have done in our pervious time but unfortunately we really have no time to do it due to some non-stopable works and duties around us...what a bad contradition!

Anyways, I will try my best to squeeze out some personal time to record down my doing, not only for documentation and also this is kind of a piece of puzzle for us to recognize our whole life.

Life in battle

Time flies, something I am eager to do but I can't, something I am not intent to do but it really happened...

Everything just like a dream, can't believe I am back into cage and equip myself to run, but that is real...

Whatever will be, will be...

I am started reading a book from Jack Welch, the previous general manager in GE. I hope I can get some tips from him how to be big and act big. Here is a quote from his book,

"Business is a game, and winning that game is a total blast."

I can totally imagine that the path being big is not just sitting in the office and drink a cup of coffee, it is about a long fight with juggling to find a moment of peace.

New life in new Co. office

Today is the 4th day working in this new co. The atmosphere is quite good. Although not many people are in aggressive working mode, but along my team espcially people on top of me keep spreading the positive learning and working attitude to everyone. It makes me feel that I can gain extra in here except money which is much more important for my career path.

During these 2 weeks I am still in the training period about all the project management technique and software, therefore I am 100% peaceful now, but I understand this is just the time before thunderstorm, I need to highly equip myself waiting for the storm coming.

The day before transform

I am not smart enough to being a human, I can only do what I always do...

Anyways, this is my fate, I accept it, but I will try my best to magnify the possibility within my profession. I will try my best to be the top even just in a little dark well.

++Just a joke++

These are what negative people always think:

就算是Believe中間還是有個lie。
就算是Friend最後還是會有個end。
就算是Lover最後還是會over。
就算是Forget也要先get才行。
就算有個Wife心裏也要假設if。

Independence day

After a long fight for jumping out from the cage, I feel so shame that I still can't break the cage, I still can't be a phoenix to suffer the dead first and then reborn. I am still who I am...the chicken...

Some people said, when you have a cup of cold water which is half full and right now you need a hot one. If you only pour the hot water into it, you can only have a cup of warm water, unless you throw away all the cold water from your cup...this is what I still can't do it...

May be I am still not a good leader to make decision from the peak. May be I am still have low EQ to control my emotion. May be I am still not hard working enough to overcome all the obstacles. Yes, too many may be, may be I think too much, I am not deserved that much...

Anyways, what I chose is what I have to deserve. I honor to have this experience even though I am not success. I am going to take a rest first and keep establish my grand life from other side. I will be back in the future...

In-depressing day

Today is the most depressing day, seems all the dreams are just floating around me but cannot be touched. I don't know what is wrong inside myself, I am totally lost... Too many nervous, negative, calculation, comparison on my every single move.

Sometimes I just want to ask for opinion from other people, what they are talking about just like an agent, just keep saying pros and cons end up with the most safe solution, "Let try to learn this first before you move on..."

MAN! 29 year old no income, no business, no house, no gf people can't do shit anymore. I feel so lonely, not just about gf relationship, seems really no one really understand me or wanna solve the problem together with me. Family creates a lot of obstacles to me, as if everything is not worth to try, this is totally the same case why my dad had no society experience at all because no one allow him to take risk and no one dare to take the risk from him. No doubt that he has no hobbies, no interest, no fds, no experience now, because the people just keep saying, "don't go out, don't even think that you can handle this job." So he can't definitely handle his life now.

This is what you did to him and don't try to sympathize him now because this is what you want him to be...