Challenging life

I always think that I am not belonged to this cruel world, this is too hard for me. I really want a break to "Stop for a moment, think for a moment".

I understand my characteristic is kind of like an artist. I enjoy to play what I like to play until I think this is perfect. Just like how ppl create an art piece, they enjoy to create an object from nothing, trying to reshape it until it really represent the same spirit in their mind, and then modeling the object little by little until it is perfect. Unfortunately, in 20 century this is nearly impossible for us to do that in our life. We are suffering every single day for earning sufficient money for eating and living. We have no extra time to do what we like to do, I am really hate this world.

Too many comparison and too many challenging happen in this world, I am really sick on those F financial numbers, I really don't understand why everything we have done in this F world is linked to money, I really can't stand with that.