講不出聲 講不出聲

對話是人與生俱來的能力，但往往人越大就越不想對話，起碼我是其中之一。其實心底是想做一個談笑生風出口成文的風流雅士，但過去10工作經驗學會了慎言，從此只會真正了解整件事才會出聲，慢慢就害怕出聲。 其實出聲又有乜好怕喎，生命滿希望前路由我創。

從新開始

昂然踏著前路去
追趕理想旅途上
前行步步懷自信
風吹雨打不退讓
無論我去到那方
心裡夢想不變樣
是新生　是醒覺 夢想永遠在世上
前路那怕遠　衹要自強
我繼續獨自尋路向
常為以往夢想發狂
耐心摸索路途上
懷自信　我永不怕夜航
到困倦我自彈自唱
掌聲我向夢想裡尋
儘管一切是狂想
途人路上回望我
衹因我的怪模樣
途人誰能明白我
今天眼睛多雪亮
人是各有各理想
奔向目標不退讓
用歌聲　用歡笑 來搏知音的讚賞
懷自信我永不怕
到困倦我自彈自唱
掌聲我向夢想裡尋
儘管一切是狂想
昂然踏著前路去
追趕理想旅途上
前行步步懷自信
依照心中那正確方向
懷著愛與恕的心
充滿夢想的笑匠
用歌聲　用歡笑 來搏知音的讚賞

縱有枕邊人傾訴，孤身一人的我依舊要踏著前路去，只為去幫助别人完成夢想從而換取金錢。夢想是公平的，每個人都可以擁有，但又有多少人能夠實現呢？

真的很久沒有寫blog，很久沒有問問陪伴了我將近33年的小腦袋有什麼控訴，希望它能夠再一次真誠的讀出黄聲文。

Eating attitude

Just realized that human being really spends a lot of time on eating habit. If a normal person does not have to think about what to eat, where to eat and how to eat, we suddenly found that you have nothing to do beside eat, eat and eat…

As a normal person, after I agreed for the diet recipe without putting a piece of rice into my stomach, I feel very exhausted and cannot function very well. In the first day I really can’t stand for that, I was so tempted on other ppl Spaghetti and the smell from deep fried chicken restaurant. But in the second and third day, I am tried to adjust my body my stomach can not telling me there is no food going down for a long time.

It is not that hard to overcome the hungry feeling because it was getting smaller and smaller. The problem is I feel exhausted most of the time unless I have drunk the juice mix with lemon and syrup and water. Even I drank the juice the feeling still not very good as if I was a robot filling gas to suspend my life. I can’t feel texture when I chewed the food, I can’t taste the ingredient when I put the food into my month, I can’t swallow the food into my stomach and enjoy it push away of my belly.

Today is the 5^th day of this diet program and there is only 2 days to go, if I really can achieve this program I think this must be one of the mission-impossible in my life…

30 plus one

30 is a critical number for every human being. I can't believe I stepped into it one year already. I feel I am still young. Young is about my skill and knowledge are still not mature enough understand the world. Young is about my strength is not strong enough to protect my important things and person. Young is about my brain is not capable to bear any new challenges from the world. But life must move on, Sing Man has to work on...

I had a very normal day to celebrate my destined 29th of May. Because I got 3 rotation leaves from my hard weekend work, I decided to spend one day on my birthday. Actually I didn't have plan today so I just found a way to take some rest at home and swam in the morning. I found when people grow up, a free day as if becomes a treasure day for me. It gave me a reason to leave all the work behind. It gave me a reason to do what I want to do in my heart by never tired before. It gave me a reason to say or to swear who I want to thank for and who I want to curse for. Within this systematic and logical world, everything need a reason...

In the afternoon I met my friend, Son, who hardly have time to meet me. He is younger than me but what he had done was 2 steps ahead on me. He is not only my best friend, he is also someone husband and someone father. Therefore we shared a lot of experience about this cruel life and beautiful life. If we can't hold the right direction, I think we already get lost or being mental illness between this black and white.

After that meaningful tea time, this is the moment to find my beautiful princess downstair her office. Seems the important character has been swapped why a birthday guy has to accept this not reasonable command, but birthday guy still could get awarded from princess anyways which were a very nice toy figure, a home made birthday cake and a super heavy NIKE bag. I didn't know if it was a treasure or burden but of course I still returned a smile and big THANK YOU to her. We reserved a table for Japanese buffet, it tasted really not bad with reasonable price. It made me to consider to visit again :P:P

The buffet only lasted for 1.5hours and as a warrior we of course fought until the last minute. We hold the exploded belly with a li-ttle bit space walked slowly away from the restaurant and looking for a place to finish that hand made birthday cake. Although it was not taste too good but it looked quite funny. It was a Teddy-bear-face rolled cake with cream. I put a candle onto his nose-hold and made big wish, I hope every wish I made will come true.

Actually I am still getting lost and floating around on this cruel world, hard to survive, hard to find myself. I hope it can be much much better on my coming years...

US trip in Philadelphia

It was quite excited to participate the MD&M East 2012 in Philadelphia in US. Because it was a trip totally sponsor by company and I can explore more using my tiny eyes.

It was the second time I represent AML to setup a booth in MD&M show. Be honestly the show was quite similar to me between MD&M West and MD&M East, it was all about manufacturing and components in medical device industry. I have tried to classify their categories and what they were trying promote, but it was something like when you open a book and trying to finish it within 3 days. You can only remember the theme what the author going to tell you but you never remember the exact story on chapter 9. So most of the time I just enjoyed the atmosphere around the convention centre and tried my best to attract more visitors to visit our booth. Hopefully I can contribute something back on this trip and gain more credit in front of my managers.

The show was started from 10am to 4pm everyday. It was an easy show I can't believe how relax they are working in US even though everyone saying now is in recession. As an easy-going mouse of course we left at 4pm everyday. It only took 10mins by taxi from convention centre to Hotel. So normally me and my colleagues will seize the time to change our clothes immedately and walked around the city in Philadelphia downtown. Definitely it was a very nice city where located a lot of traditional buildings. During the time we walked around the city, you could see a lot of sporty teenagers jogging across the street even it was just about 5pm. Once again it told us that they deserved recession!

Actually 2/3 of this trip I was stayed in US and the other 1/3 I will go to Ottawa in Canada to visit one of my key customer Abbott Lab. At the beginning I didn't have any feeling on it but once the airplane landed on Ottawa, I can feel Canada! I can feel there is a place I spent 5 F years for studying F Engineering! I can feel a lot of F lazy Canadian around this F lazy land! I can't imagine I will back to this land. It was all about fate.

Although the schedule is very tight, all the activities along this trip was very successful. Although my last presentation in Ottawa I felt obviously not so good, I don't know why my manager was quite impress on this, may be the reason was she can speak most of the time and most of the time everyone was laughing. Anyways if she was happy I happy.

After this trip it told me that I was still very tiny in this world and my experience was still very fresh. I need to embrace my weakness and smash one after another one. Life is tough...

Intensive training course

During this business trip, I was not only standing on the exhibition and promoted our company to the world, I had to visit a customer who had communicated with me for a long time by email without seeing each other. I was excited if there were any pretty sexy big boobs girls there because we had set up several conference calls before and one voice was kind of cute. :P

Because this is the first time for me to visit customer, Assistant Manager still do not have enough experience to present skillfully, therefore my Manager’s Manager will travel with me on this trip. She is a short lady with high pitch voice, always with an executive look with a feeling between mature and casual. She likes to talk even though she claimed that she was very quiet when she was young. On 24th May morning my Manager’s Manager and I were taking a taxi and heading to customer office. She is a very experience person with quick response. At the beginning I thought I was well prepared but actually my plan was just several steps behind her. Presentation is not about procedure, it needs more back up plan to support any unexpected accidents. And it also needs more tricks to bring our target onto the trap which already setup. It was very difficult to develop the lead on every uncertain situation. At the same time I feel it is kind of funny to develop this experience if I have the capability to develop.

During this trip, we visited 2 different locations one was in Princeton New Jersey another was in Ottawa. I felt I was still about a sperm swinging myself so hard for a long time but still swimming in the similar area. This was a very good experience for me to explore myself especially I could learn a lot from my Manager’s Manager. Due to my limited brain capability, I had dropped down the following notes to remind myself make sure I can do better for next trip.

1. Always keep a notebook (in paper) on pocket to write down any important things in front of customer to show our respect. Never try to type by computer.

2. Remember to check in 24 or 48 hours ago before fly. It shows the seize-time attitude on every tiny thing, so you can keep high spirit.

3. Power point must have an agenda page as an index.

4. Any argument must have a conclusion.

5. Always have company leaflet and souvenir with you when having an appointment. Every human being loves free stuffs.

6. Brings products to promote new technology or advantage to customer. New toys always make ppl smile.

7. Try to find a way to break ice with customer at the very beginning, any silly things would be good. It is beneficial on low down their caution and release the stress from ourselves.

8. Always check on next location and next appointment if we have enough money. Resource is king to move on.

9. At last better find a way to take a picture with customer. It is a prove for your work.