物以類聚

The world is really fun, people will group together if their character is similar, people will not be together no matter how they hard want to be.

Some people I was really hate, I don't want to talk with them or teasing with them. But when I sit down and think why I have this reaction, most of the reason are;

1. I hate people doing what I am trying to do in the same situation.
2. I hate people showing something is wrong but the same idea has already been generated in my mind.
3. I hate people selling the same characteristic as myself.

Therefore, those people I hate can be a mirror for me to discover more about myself. Mirror will be the best friend to everyone in someday.

Happeace

Happeace = Happy peace

This is what I have learnt from Manulife last year. It's the most fair and honest theory to explain how life is. No religious background, no complication, but already cover everything.

Here is the link but only for Chinese native :P

http://www.happeace.org/index.asp

In the past I have intention to reject or block any big rule in the world, I think everything won't be perfect, there must be some weak point I can break through. Nothing is good in the world, why I need to accept it?

But now, I have to say that no perfect in this world, the first thing I have to accept is myself.

Action -> Change

Seems lazy after the long Tai Wan trip, may be because of the vacation mood or may be because of the cold weather, I keep breaking the combo of writing blog continuously.

I still cannot upload those Tai Wan pictures because all of it still holding by our photographer, I hope I myself can have a chance to see it too.

Everything is not that complicated, just depend on how we handle it. Change needs patient, I hope my patient can last as long as my blog can last. New year is almost coming, I hope nega can run away from the bottom of my heart.

Merry X'mas

I haven't touched my blog for a week already. Feel tired espcially on my feet after back from Tai Wan trip, I think I need a massage for that. I supposed that must be super busy after those 2 sneak out vacations, but due to the fail on the environmental test, all the prepared and finished goods had to be on hold, no more production on the day when I back, all because of R&D's problem, they really made me mad.

Back to the trip, it's really a good trip, makes me relax a little bit but not indulgence. Everything was planned, together with a lot of history and information for every location, so that we didn't have to be confused where we had been. A great photographer along with us, so that the best moment always been captured. All the great foods was just ready on time, so that we wouldn't waste extra money on searching foods. Everything is perfect, just too perfect...

The most different thing between Hong Kong and Tai Wan is the people, they look more friendly and polite to me, not that materialism. This is what Hong Kong people have to learn and espcially what I have to learn.

Now is 1:15pm in China office, try to upload some pictures when I go back home.

Same F busy day

No word to say, and didn't want to say, and no power to say...

Just have a good sleep and ready for my Tai Wan trip :P

F OT day

Diu! OT until 10:40pm, F that!

I F hate R&D, no skill but keep thinking that they are different with other workers. D it, we are all little mice, okay?

F exhausted day

I don't know if it's because no exercise within these cold months, I feel I am easy to get tired, don't really have passion to work on anything...

Those 2 projects keep going on, problems keep coming as well. Just heard that even all those samples can be passed from QA but seems still a lot of failures after environmental test. Such a delicate fragile product. I don't know how we can make it possible in mass production...

I don't care too much, I just did my part, all these technical issues is not my problem. I am the person would like to devote all of my time on my career, honestly this is also the only thing I can do in my life right now, but after I talk with or discuss with those geniuses, I better shut my mouth off and walk away...

Christmas dinner

Today we had a Christmas dinner in one of the hotel in Tsim Sha Tsui. The foods were not bad, many species to choose but somehow I didn't want to pick more. But I was quite enjoy about their dessert, especially for the ice-cream because it was Haagen-dazs. I keep eating and refilling until I feel I was full...

As usual, there has a lucky draw in the last section. From the beginning there only had some souvenirs about Disneyland's accessories, red wines and bags. Later on, each of the top manager sponsor 1000hkd for 2 lucky members, total I think is around 5000hkd for 10 lucky members. BUT AS USUAL, I got none from it, I really has no luck on any gambling things...

On the way I back home, I was thinking why I have no luck as usual, is it I really has no luck or some factory affect my luck? Actually I don't believe on luck, if really have to conclude on something, it is about the negative energy generated from inside myself...

Calm before thunderstorm

We have received a schedule from customer about our new products development which already run for 8months. New technical problems keep coming up, suppose solved problems still haven't been solved...that's why customer really piss off.

We can't delay the schedule again, that's why 3 of the company heads together with R&D manager went to find our vendor to solve this problem. They have a whole day talk, although they don't really have the skill to solve technical issue, the power of top management may provides pressure to speed up the chance of success. Anyways, this is our last hope by the way...

Tonight I back to my room earlier, not because of lazy but trying to save more energy for tomorrow battle. :-#

又要做o野最唔好

在家真好

回家真好

F GD busy

Where is my real life? Where is my real personality? Where is my soul?

What the F F F!

Identity Explore (I.E.)

As Kit told me that there has many funny things and special things happen around our factory everyday. You really can learn a lot if you talk with different kind of person.

Tonight I have a dinner with one of the engineer, he really is a open-mind person, the opposite of me. Although he is just a little mouse, his heart is never been small. I think I have a lot things to learn from him...

I really has a lot of problems, but the problems can be nothing to me as well.

Strive for success

Last night i watched a tv series talking about an old rich guy is going to marry a wowan who is much younger than him. At the beginning, no one is looking good at this relationship, especially the son of the old rich guy and the father of the woman, they don't accept this kind of abnormal relationship. But the old rich guy still be gentle and kind, trying to express his feeling slowly on the stage, telling everyone that how much they love each other and so on...

In the reality, I can't imagine this kind of thing will happen to me. But if you think more detail, this is also just a scene floating in our life. No big deal at all. If someone disagree with you, try to find a way make everyone happy, if someone agree with you, try to find a way make everyone happier. The only thing we have to do is strive for success, the success from heart. Time will prove that what we have done is all right, what we have not done is just a waste in life.

Myself

I can only feel myself when I am working.

Today I back to my office in the morning, I saw everyone are busy on their work, talking on the phone and rushing for meeting. It reminds me how many e-mails I have to reply and how many projects I have to follow. I don't have time to ask myself question beside work. Work is just like a giant ecosystem in my brain, each decision is based on different intention and creates several expected and unexpected results. Base on certain result, there also has new decision to resolve. I can see the business is running, the world is changing, a lot of tiny works flowing along my body, stimulating my nerves, delivering singal to my brain...

I don't have religion. If someone ask me what I really believe in, I can say, "Cause, Action, Effect". I do something have to base on some reason, I go somewhere have to some reason, I love someone have to base on some reason. I can't live without reason, every action I need reason to support. I am afraid to move without support.

I have people I can fully trust, but I admit that I don't really trust people. Something happened around 4 years ago never deleted from my brain, hope and desperation were coming over and over again. People stay together has nothing else but only reasons, the reason of love. Love also needs the reason to love, how unbelievable!

After that I knew everything in this world need support, even our emotion. We need reason to work, we need reason to play, we need reason to love, we need reason to die...

Everytime when I off work without pressure staying in my room, I can't find any reason to move and think, I can't find myself either...

Joker's theory

WHY SO SERIOUS!?

Why so serious on what I will do next? Just let it be...

North Sup is back!

We have met since the last trip in Japan, I went from Shen Zhen and he went from Toronto. All decision are in sudden, just resolved by msn and telephone. And then after the 4 days trip over there we separated again and back to Shen Zhen and Toronto respectively.

Our mindset is totally different, I think there has only few interests and hobbies link us together. He is a agressive guy, he has an action earlier than a plan, he likes to make money in small investment and big return. I am a passive guy, I used to plan earlier than an action, I would like to make money in long investment and stable return.

But after I met him tonight in Causeway Bay, I still found that our goal are in the same, still the same buddy I met in the past. Our life style and experience are different, of course there have some contradiction in between, but I feel we have understanding, we have the attitude to learn different things, we have the spirit do something big.

Time is seeking for change, Team is ready to move...

All we need is the cohesion.

Japanese foods

This Friday just had a dinner with mom in the japanese restaurant near our home. The restaurant opened during the recession, so they provide promotion almost in every single day. Today whole day has 20% off for any kind of foods, after 9:30pm even has 50% off for some sushi. What's a pity restaurant.

We are a kind person, that's why we show our mercy to them tonight.

Customer is gone

Don't know why today was so tired...

Visiting vendor for new design development, preparing documents according to customer requested, discussing technical issues with F R&D staffs, planning for the postponed and re-postponed schedule, dealing with Purchasing about the material issues, Sorting some data from computer system due to a casual conversation between GM and customer, writing a documentation for customer without any support...

This factory is not mine, why seems like I have to work as a boss...

I am just a mouse, little chinese-hong kong mouse...

Mid night blog

Just had a dinner outside with colleagues, knowledge is learning from experience, expenience is gained from change, change is the source of knowledge...

Life is...

Will I be GM at 31?

I just knew that my GM is only 31 year old. Unbelievable!

How he talks with customers, how he manages his schedule, how he discusses problems with other department heads, how he has a casual talk with us...everything is just like a cunning experienced guy at around 35 year old...

I think he is a really good mirror to reflect what I did right and what I did wrong in my past 27 years. I still have 4 years to go for my chair of GM.

Life is...

Customer arrives tomorrow

Today supervisors and managers were very busy on their own work, keeped plundering all the important information from underneath for preparing their presentation tomorrow. I am not a manager or supervisor, I am just a mouse working underneath, of course I am the one to donate my work and sacrifice my time for their unlimited greediness.

But once the clock hit at 5pm, just like a werewolf sees the moon, everything was changed. We will find a way or excuse to sneak out from the office or trying to be hidden from everyone's eyes.

I am educated and experienced, it is not that hard for me to sneak out from the office. Right now is 7:30pm, I have already bathed and sitting calmly in my room.

Work work work

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知否世事常變, 變幻原是永恒

In our whole life, we are trying to learn everything about science, economic, finance, management, communication, social culture, etc...

All these are just about data in static, we may understand in someday. But one thing we are facing every single day is our "reaction of change". The world is changing everyday, someday we may go through the same pattern as our past, but someday we not. Luckily I am not a big man as some superstars, minister or president, I don't have to face some new people everyday, but only deal with some new problems mixing with old problems in scrambled sequence. For example, choosing a best clothes for myself, discussing the technical problems with customer, reporting my work flow for manager. All these problems are just a piece of cake if we have enough time to solve it, but try to imagine if these problems have to have a decision in the next second, what I will do? Can I really make the best decision according to the data in my brain? Can I response the result correctly? All is about our "reaction of change".

知否世事常變, 變幻原是永恒
(Know the world is always changed, change is the thing never be changed)

Cake Napoleon

Just try Cake Napoleon which made by my mom, super yummy and delicious! I think our own dessert/cake restaurant is close to us now~

The Great Pretender

O~Oh ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Preten~ding that I'm doing well~
My need is such I preten~d too much~
I'~m lonely but no one can tell~

O~Oh ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Adrift in a world of my own~
I play~ the game but to my~ real shame~
You left my to dream all alone~

Too real~ is the fee~ling of make believe~
Too real~ when I feel what my heart can't conceive~

O~Oh~O~Oh~O~Oh~O ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Just laugh~ing and gay like a clown~
I seem~s to be what I'm not, you see~
I'm wearing my heart like a crown~
Pre~ten~ding that you're still around~

Too real~ is the fee~ling of make believe~
Too real~ when I feel what my heart can't conceive~

O~Oh~O~Oh~O~Oh~O ye~s, I'm the great pretender~
Just laugh~ing and gay like a clown~
I seem~s to be what I'm not, you see~
I'm wearing my heart like a crown~
Pre~ten~ding that you're still~ a~round~

Happeace

Where is my Happeace?

If something I can have easily and do not have to struggle for? Is it my Happeace?

Everyday I can off work as normal without OT, every month I can receive my salary safely without worry about the economic turn-down, every year I can stay with my family for new year without disease...Is it my Happeace?

Should I just satisfy with this?

My cousin

I have 6 cousins so far in the same generation as me, they are all graduated and struggling in this cruel world. But right now, it is not only 6 but 7, because here is the other cousin from Thailand - Namo.

He is half year old right now, curious on everything around him, playing and laughing with people around him. I haven't stay with him, all the information are reported by his mom. I only stayed with him 3days when he was in 3months old. I did feed him and held him during that time, I hope he can memorize it.

I love this picture because it shows the strong feeling of life, announcing to the world, "I am here!" and showing to everyone that, "I have 2 teeth now!"

Everything is on myself

Give up? Or get up?

I believe everything is depended on ourselves, the motivation may come from love, ambition or essential-desire. It is nothing related to God. Yes, we may be wrong sometimes to limit our capability, but once we can shift to our availability, this is because of we try to think more, we try to ask more and also we try to accept more. All the inspiration are coming from our family, our friends, our lover and our environment.

We have some many resources in our world, we can rely on ourselves, our family, our lover or our friends, why you have to believe or rely on something you have never seen once from your real eyes?

Be positive!

Today I read a news about an Australian who has no arms and legs since he was born, only using a little muscle under his left waist which he calls, "chicken leg" to do many activities such as soccer, golf, dance and music. Right now, I don't know exact how old he is, but I think must be older than me. He has completed 2 bachelors about something business administration and finance...

In his face, I can't see any confusion, self-abasement or disappointment. He still claims his "little leg" as a chicken leg, tries to utilize every parts of his body to enjoy his life. Because of his positive spirit, Hong Kong government invited him to visit Hong Kong for cheering up everyone here to overcome the unexpected future from economic turn-down.

It reminds me a saying, "所有過去的都是零, 所有将来的都是重新开始" (All the past are zero, all the future are just the beginning).

Winter

As a snake I want to have a winter sleep also, to have a long long sleep to pass through this horrible year, or may be this gruesome life.

Life is not easy

Just had Friday gathering with my best friends, everything is still complicated...

The more I think, the much more nega will create from my brain...

Really want to have a new different life after I re-open my eyes...

S..L..E..E..P...

Another beer day

After beer always makes me sleepy, sleeeeeeeeeeepy, sleeee...

F conference at 9pm

Off work at 6pm but still have to wait for 3hours for a tele-conference with US customer at 9pm. Without OT pay, without promotion, only has a free dinner outside cannot feed my starving stomach!

You are what you are

Just read an article about Warren Buffett, he drives his own car everywhere and does not have a driver or security people around him. And his reply is, "You are what you are".

Yes. if time allows us to try, we should try to be any role. Try to devote ourselves into any situation and understand the objective for each role.

I still believe that human can excel themselves only because of desire or pessimism or both. 28 year ago, there had a girl who married overseas with a F A stranger. She didn't recognize the language at all, just tried to guess and learn as much as possible, she becomes a fluent chinese speaker now. Nobody helped her on housework, she is a professional housekeeper now. Complained everyday from grandma about the cooking skill, she is an experienced chef now. Brought her son to some new place per week, she is familiar with all the bus routes now. Did not have enough budget for every single meal, she remembers all kind of foods price now. Sufferred with psychopaths from day to night, stayed between peace and chaos, she becomes an agile person now...

Nobody knows what will happen in the future, nobody can expect what will get after diligence.

Seminar about REACH

Registration, Evaluation and Authorization of CHemicals = REACH.

European loves to create this kind of huge wording puzzle and then just passes it to someone to build it. It is about a chemical specialist who understand all the chemical substances using from all the products. They need to clarify all the substances which contain in every products. Not only asking a girl to give you a smile or a kiss, they need the girl naking in front of them and always stand by for special task.

But no choice, we are not smart enough, we have to be the girls and they can be the commanders. But if they still need the service, we of course understand how to make them happy and get benefit from them. Because we are chinese.

By the way, after this morning seminar, I got back to factory by bus but claimed taxi. Around 55rmb bonus for today. :-#

Team Building side effect

The Team Building yesterday was really worthy for everyone. Sometimes when we are working in a big city for a long time, it makes us easy to forget some basic rules we should carry on, the rules of success. All the rules always beside our mouth but not process by our brain.

They taught us basically on three different directions: Cooperation, Motivation and Organization. Everyone seems to understand confidently, but how many person are really using it all in every single minute in parallel? how many person get used to find out their weakness and confront it?

After we all done the missions, we had a graduation ceremony. We totally had 90 somethings people there, we had to climb over a 4m wall which call "Graduation wall". 4 F meters tall man! We are all chinese mice, the average height is around 1.65m, even we stand shoulder by shoulder, it just around 3.3m! I think it is impossible to do it. But end up we all did it! What we have to do is plan and action. Sometimes don't think too much, just do it.

The course is fun, but it still consumed my whole saturday without OT pay and left me a tired body. After having a morning movie with my friend in Mong Kok, I walked around there for a new glasses and new shoes, then I got back to my home for a long nap and until dinner time.

Life is...

F tried

I have spent all day on company Team Building, so F tired today, don't want to have a D talk or D think about it at this moment...

Just bath and sleep...

F Friday night

Tomorrow have to join the Team Building organized by company in China, as though a OT without pay. I don't want to waste my time on traffic, so I decide to stay in cage tonight...

What a F Friday night...

Wisdom tooth

In this few weeks, I feel some painful coming from my left side mouth cavity, especially after eating. I think my wisdom tooth may get trouble on growth. It not aligns with the other teeth but move a bit outward.

I am kind of scare to have a surgery to take off my wisdom tooth, because I heard that is extremely painful. The dentist tried to remove the wisdom tooth as though doing a work out, stepping on the chair and holding the clip by two hands, stretching their body backward and pulling the tooth out from mouth...

I am still not sure is it the reason, I hope that I am wrong, just may be the dirty around my teeth. Therefore, I brush my teeth twice per day right now and take care more on those wisdom teeth. I don't want to lost all the teeth as my grandma. :-#

mid-age life

Off work on schedule, go out with colleagues for dinner with beers, back home and get ready for another working day...

Defines myself again!?

"Wait! You could die."
"At least tell me your name."
"It's not who I am underneath..."
"But what I do that define me."
"Bruce."

So the point is, what I am doing now???

Wake up in the morning at 8am, spend around 10 minutes to brush my teeth, splash my face, pee my wastes and change my clothes, and then hurry to the cage and record my working time which always has 30mins late...

Conceal my emotion and show my serious face to all chinese mice after I sit on my chair, telling them don't ever try to fool me around when I have some order for them. Start having a routine argument with them on different production problems...

Never forget to check with the numbers 1200 and 1700 which provide foods and free time for me. Try my best to off work on time to be a disciplined good staff...

It's not what I do that define me, it's who I am underneath...

Generation Y

Generation Y, sometimes referred to as "Millennials" or "Net Generation", who were born between 1979-1995 and grew up in the 1990s and 2000s.

Generation Y tend to create their own world rather than just work for some other people. They care what they feel, they care what they eat, they care what they love, they care what they own.

Is it good? we don't know.

Forgive and forget

Today I went to a Christian church with my friend. Nothing special, just curious how they save those helpless mortals or want to be one of them being helped.

I haven't stepped into church for almost 10 years. This is also just my second time to step into it. I still remember last time when my friend and I arrived the church, a lot of Christians came to us and then shaked our hands, introducing themselves immediately, putting their pleasant and joyful onto their faces, asking to join them as well next week. It really shocked me. Even though they had a great choir and great speaker, these atmosphere made me didn't want to go there again.

After 10 years later, I visited another Christian organization, not much hand shaking and greeting but I still couldn't enjoy their culture completely. I don't know why, may be there has a fight inside between optimist and pessimist.

A lot of mental education over there. No matter how they pack it up then promote to us, there still have a lot of truth inside we should learn and memorize. Having an exercise in 21 days tries to forgive and forget all the unhappy things, it will become a habit and purify our body from negative mind...I hope it works to me.

Never give up

"What have I done, Alfred? Everything my family...my father built..."
"The Wayne legacy is more than bricks and mortar, sir."
"I thought I could help Gotham," "But I've failed."
"And why do we fall, sir?"
"So that we might better learn to pick ourselves up."
"Still haven't give up on me?"
"Never."

There has many treasures come into our life. Sometimes we can grasp it tightly, sometimes we can't. Sometimes it's big, sometimes it's small. If one day treasures no longer belong to us, don't worry, our spirit has owned the treasure, the treasure of change.

Happy Friday

After a series of suffering, having a gathering with my best friends and bullshit everything I want to say really is the best medicine to heal my soul. Best of the best!

A leisure thursday

Today all the supervisors and managers went to a training course for the new computer system training, only mice were leaving in the cage...

Hat hat hat, mice without supervisor only has one result, work hard in slow motion! Of course I am just a mouse, I have to follow the big trend, I don't like discrimination!

Today the time goes especially fast, work when I want to use my brain, dream when I want to rest, command when I want to show off, leave when I want to go. What's happy thursday!

Define myself?

"Deep, deep down, you may be the same great kid you used to be... but it's not who you are underneath -- it's what you do that defines you."

What we are doing right now is what we are. No complain, no regret. It's all about depend on what we want...

Happy hour

A routine, boring, frustrated and messy working area always makes me depressed. Especially on Monday and Tuesday, seems I come to this world is only as a gear wheel helping the rotation of the earth...I really need a rest and run away from this big machine.

Sometimes I feel I think too much, my brain run too fast, too sensitive on what other people think. It makes my emotion changing in every single minute.

I still remember there has a japanese comic <<幽遊白書>> which I like so much. There had a guy who helped God to kill all the ghost in this world. He thought that he was the righteousness and ghost always was the most corrupt things. One day, something happened to him and realized that from human deep inside also contained the most corrupt things, he couldn't accept that what he was trying to protect just another corruption. After that day he got a mental illness which contained 7 personalities in his mind. 7 personalities provide 7 different point of views for him to find the "ultimate righteousness".

I think 7 personalities is cool, I really want to have that. But the process is very tough, I still far away from it. I really need something to neutralize it now....Happy hour!

Depression

Don't know why so depressed tonight, want to control everything, but not everything under control...

Time flies, but no shine...

Where is my auspicious star

I remember Rooster in this year should be very lucky and charming, but 3/4 of this year is already gone, I still cannot feel any from it.

The auspicious star is still far away from me, or did it pass by with no recognition?

Embrace your worst fear

"To conquer fear you must become fear,"
"You must bask in the fear of other men...and men fear most what they cannot see."
"It is not enough to be a man,"
"You have to become an idea...a terrible thought...a wraith---"
"Embrace your worst fear..."

This is totally the idea of Sadism & Masochism. But don't you think this is just what we are doing in our life?

If we want to be muscular, we need to stretch our muscle strongly.
If we want to be an oriented-person, we need to control our emotion carefully.
If we want to be knowledgable, we need to study hard.
If we want to be rich, we need to work tough.
If we want to be survived, we need to engulf another creature ruthlessly.

No pain, no gain.

We don't have choice, Mr. S. M. Wong.

Happy Halloweeeeeeeen

I saw many "ghosts" walking on the street tonight, especially at Lan Kwai Fong. A lot of people pretended to be ghost, a lot of people made up not willing to be a ghost. People are to be afraid of ghost, but still huddle together for celebrating ghost.

All these scenes of action was just passing by when I was in the bus on the way back home. Happy Halloween!

Problem solving

Problem has never gone, he likes to visit our R&D every single day. Nobody likes him, but nobody knows how to kick his ass also. People just leave him here for 4 months. I am familiar with him now and notice that he is getting bigger and bigger within this period.

Today, I surprised that another problem just arrived. We've got problemS!

I have tried to find a way to kill them, but the more I think, the more I can't think. I realise that knowledge won't come at once, we can only build it brick by brick to become a gate so call solving.

Learning from others

If you think you are not a smart person, you have to accept that immediately and try to learn from others around you.

When children grow up, they just open the gate and receive any new information from the world. Our brain has a "first come first serve" system, the first idea they get, it means the right to them. If there has no external force to annoy their development during this period, they think that everything they've done is all correct and just live in their own world. Because right means no need to change. Change means wrong.

When I was around 6~10 years old, I had an idea that all the things around me were just temporary. If I turned my head and the object was not within my eye sight, it should be vanished. All the things I had seen only to serve my development. Object showed up in front of me was all a plan.

Life is a journey of learning, if the first idea we have gotten is not the ultimate right, then we have no doubt to accept the false and correct our mind immediately. And how to find the way out is only by our basic knowledge or environment comparsion.

So if people interest to be success but do not have enough basic knowledge to find the right, please learn from others. This is the most simple way for stupid people to success.

Fear

I am addicted on my novel now. May be I am the same person who like to criticize our life, seeking the meaning of justice.

"You know why they attacked you? They were afraid of you."
"Afraid of me?"
"You're a lot bigger than a bat, aren't you? All creatures feel fear."
"Even the scary ones?"
"Especially the scary ones."

I think the meaning of justice is too far away from my stupid knowledge, but I truely agree that I always feel fear on every single NEW thing. When I was hosting a presentation, when I was talking with stranger on the street, when I was sitting in a new german class or when I was travelling overseas and talking with some foreigner, I always felt small in front of them...

Hey, Come on! I am the same size as they are, why I have to feel fear to them. And the most important thing is, I don't look scary at all!

Stock disaster

Today the world market is kept dropping as usual, but Hong Kong market is even more worse. Unbelievable! I still remember our F Hong Kong government promises that no matter how difficult on our economic circumstance, they will ensure our market is in stable. But see! what the F is going on now!

After this few months, I don't feel any fear. I only see chances. I can feel that if I put double or triple effort on my future career, 10 times or 100 times profit can surely be returned.

Batman mania

Today after I woke up from my bed, I started to play the DVD "Batman begins" until 11am. Before I read the novel, I would like to have a quick review on movie's version first to understand more about the background.

I feel the foundation of this story is very strong, it can develop into many different trends, creates a lot of rooms for imagination. That's why the story is so success.

Comic is not just a comic brings us excitement, it can be a prototype for us to learn and understand about our life. We can apply some ideas into our real life or try some new ideas from virtual life. How to write a good story just like how to write your own life.

Nega begins

Today I went to the post office to get a novel "Batman begins" which I ordered from Amazon. When I walked to the post office, a forgotten playground was being found.

Back to around 24 years ago, an innocent child loved to play in this playground with his mom, may be 1~2 times per week. After finished kindergarten, they used to go to the nearest convenient store 7-11 to have some sandwiches or hotdogs and then brought it over there. The playground was small but quiet, protected by some big trees. Although it was beside the road, noise could never reach the playground. Normally the child loved to run and climb allover the playground and his mom just sat aside holding the sandwiches or hotdogs and watching. When the child felt tired, his mom will yell at him for feeding. What's a peaceful memories...

Right now, the playground has changed, the facilities has changed. In the past it was made by wood, some big woods, but now it is all by plastics. I think it's about the safety problem and maintenance problem.

It shows that everything is changing because of many reasons. We don't know the change is good or not, but we cannot stop it. Every single action or movement cannot show the absoluate right or wrong, the final justice is all by our heart.

Change and change, the story keeps going on, Nega begins...

Home is the best

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.

If you follow the alone star, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blind your eyes, my love will get you home.

If your troubles break your strike, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.

when there is only you to blame, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself losing long alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home, boy, my love will get you home.

I wish my dream come true

R&D is supposed the core department in a company, everyone should be smart and highly originated, but why totally different in here?

I don't want to discuss with them anymore, don't really have passion to train those humanized mice anymore...just make sure I've done my job and turn off the air-cond if I am the last one to leave office.

Work has no ended, dream has never stoped, I wish my dream can come true...

I still need a dream

Today when the second new manager came, I can't feel anymore promotion smell for me next year...

Right now the world economic is turn-down, many factories have already bankrupted, but our company still hires two more managers. Ha!

No matter how hard I have done, seems nothing is going to be changed. So, today I decided to leave in a reasonable time, 7:00pm, even though there still is a mess in our R&D. I don't really want to S around with them and suggest any piss of S idea for them, just let them go...

I remember no one won the "mark six lottery" Jackpot last time, the accumulation is around $20,000,000hkd! I think I should spend a night to collect some idea on lucky numbers rather than just work for a non-promotion life. Both are in the same low chance, but the leverage is a huge different.

Oktoberfest

Because I need to carry some samples from China to Hong Kong, after finished my work I can join the Oktoberfest in Macro Polo organized by Lufthansa.

I am not supposed to join this party but just a coincidence, I have this chance again to enjoy all the free delicious foods and beer.

I think a good party don't really need any high-tech equipments for support or any famous band to perform. If the host can drive everyone devote on the party, it will be a good party. Foreigner really can do it. Good job!

After the show, I feel relax but small, I still have a lot of things to learn, chinese!

Work work work

Monday is a lazy day, always has a big repulsion on work...

My brain is not functioned probably. Is it because of the 2hours travel from home to factory or my brain already in a maximum capacity? I really want to know...

Today have no more OT, just back to my room to enjoy my lonely calm night...

Old buddy

Finally I did download all the photos from Japan Tokyo from July this year. There is no reason why my action is so slow, may be the only reason is lazy...

This was the first time I went to Tokyo, no tour, no guide. Everything arranged by myself. It was a very very good experience, just like an adventure. What I replied on was the map and my dependable old buddy, Marky.

The purpose for this trip supposed for our business, we would like to search any kind of potential products for sell. Everyday we woke up at 9am and backed to hotel at almost 12pm. 14hours on the street went through all the retails and wholesales as much as possible. We all went by train, the train system in Tokyo is amazing, it covers a lot of area in Tokyo. But honestly, if no one leads me the way, I think I will get trap in this maze forever...

Everyday we tried to search for business opportunities over there but ended up was just likely more to be a old friend gathering or shopping trip. Everything just an idea without conclusion. But anyway, I still love this trip, because it gives me a lot of time to meet Marky.

Due to workload at the moment, I have less time to call him in Canada. I don't know what he is doing right now, but I hope he is still doing fine. He is a smart creative guy, but sometimes I feel that he always asks for short-cut but lack of long term diligence on a right direction.

You are the man, "North Sup"!

Men's talk

Today Jeremy, Kit and I had a long conversation again to talk about our F unclear life as usual...

We set up the stage for our debate in a chinese restaurant in Mong Kok. I think both of us are getting old now, that's why they get used to go there. In fact, I don't really like to go there because it makes me feel I am old! But the most important things are too noisy over there and really have no interest on "Dim sum" now. I don't know why...

At first, we were teasing around with some low level dirty joke as usual, I love it, it really helps me to release my pressure. Then later on, Kit shared a lot of his experience in China that I had never faced before. Robbers were still everywhere in China, they will just kill you if they are not happy from your donation amount. Polices are not responsible on their job even they know that some robbers are robbing like shopping on the street. Threatening happens everyday everywhere depending on their power and support. Corruption emerged obviously in a company but no one wants to solve it...

The difference is before I know that but I don't really consider this is happened. But now I will count it as my life experience to alert myself. Sometimes, you must agree that the earth keeps rotating even though you just want to stand firmly. The only thing you can do is to find your own way out. But how??

Business is always planned but no action. I need more and more cohesion...

Friday Friday

Happy to run away from my trouble cage.

But sometimes I get headache just because I feel excited to release my pressure or changing my working mode suddenly. Just like tonight...

I really need to learn how to control my emotion.

Am I FAS 2nd?

Lead and drive

Today I did OT until 8:30pm, so many outstanding issues suddenly came up.

I really hate china mice, no matter high class mice or low class mice, they are still mice.

For those low class mice, they would be piss off easily if they are doing something not as their expected, but why they don't piss off on their unexpected life?

For those high class mice, they always tell you they will provide fully support, but end up you still need to teach him what is the meaning of support.

When I was leaving the cage, then had an around 30mins conversation with GM. Although we just talked for a while, but I think he is a really smart and high EQ guy, he taught me a lot of project management skills. Everything is about "Lead and drive", everywhere has mice, only depends on how you drive them...

I agree with him, we smiled to each other, then I left.

Deutsch begins

Man needs target, we cannot just spend our time with meaningless...

After I skip german course almost around half year, this is the time for revenge! I must climb over this obstacle no matter what, I am the MAN of my word!

Of course, the most important thing is after I pass this exam, I can claim back the funding from government about 6000hkd :-#


"Im Moment haette Ich gern mehr Deutsch gelernt, und dann kann ich die Pruefung bestehen"

Another GD busy day

2 pilots are in progress, it makes me exhausted.

Customer left today. Although there still have many works to do, I still off work on time as usual. Ha!

Physically I can relax my body, but mentally my brain are still running rapidly. I really want to switch off my brain as I switch off a TV...

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I just knew that my Grandma from Thailand is not twisted her waist but broke her wrist. So may be I did pray in a wrong position yesterday, I hope that God can understand what I mean and heal her in a correct position. God bless her.

GD busy

Back to the undeveloped factory again.

People in here just follow the procedure without thinking why. They can't even create a X-Y table to drop down some data, but love to blame on me, "Why don't you prepare a table for us, see! what a wasting time here!" Hey, come on! Do you really know what are you doing here? Working is really only for money? Do you have brain? Are you a mouse?

Yes, only mouse accepts to run in a circle without asking why. They just run for run, eat for eat, sleep for sleep and shit for shit...

Right now, I am still in a big cage building some entertainment for china mouses. Right now is around 9:36pm...

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Today I heard that my grandma from Thailand got fall down and twist her waist. She is 70 something year old now, I beg that she can be as healthy and cunning as before.

受過傷, 先知道要堅强; 受委屈, 先會學到原諒.

When the first time I heard this lyric, I really really agree with that.

That means "After you got hurt, you learn to be stronger; after you got grievance, you learn how to forgive."

It is an old lyric but it suddenly flashed in my mind when I was swimming. May be not every people need that experience, but I surely know that I have to learn from this way. Stupid me.

Tonight is kind of cold and windy, not many people swimming there. Long time ago I was really afraid of chilled water, but today I feel that I get used to it. May be I am getting stronger.

After a long weekday

Even I felt so tired when I got back home, I still decided to swim.

Swimming in the water allow me to smash or decompose all the problems in my mind, and then reconstruct a new idea what I really have to do now.

Because I went to the swimming pool right on time at 6:00pm which is the re-opening time, not much people was there. As usual I swam 900m within around 45mins, then I got a nice bath there and back home for dinner.

I don't really want to do much and think much today as this week is really busy, so have a good nite dude.

Where is my home?

One week normally 5 days work but I am not stayed in my home right now...

What a GD thing is, this Saturday I also have to stay in factory due to some outstanding issue. I am still sitting in my F company chair and using my F company notebook to write my F blog, even though right now is 10:57pm at Friday night!

Am I being exiled or am I being merged?

I need F promotion, 20% or...

Work is life or life is work?

No matter how you read it, seem everything is just about work work work...

At 10:00am: Our customer arrived.

At 3:00pm: Luckily the conversation about my topic is not too long, I only took around 30mins to finish it, then I could sneak out from the meeting.

At 4:30pm: After they went through the agenda, total 7 people including myself went to a massage centre for free foot massage.

At 7:00pm: After the free foot massage was done, the massagist woke me up from the dream then started feeling a bit hungry.

At 8:00pm: We had a great free dinner in a pretended high class restaurant. End up I still took my full stomach back.

Work gives us money, work gives us experience, work gives us wide vision, work gives luxury, work gives us life...

But why I still hate work??

Invulnerable vitality

No matter how hard our life is, this is our life.

Right now, the world market is in chaos, but I don't feel any pressure inside, I am in peace at this moment.

The most important thing is to equip ourselves as much as possible, when the chance comes, a stinky black shit also will become a brilliant diamond.

I enjoy to be a stinky sticky black shit now. Yeah!

Autumn

Now weather is going to change, start getting cold now...

I love cold, I hate cold. What a confuse mind again...

The transition from warm to cold really make me depress and weaken. Really don't want to spend energy on working or exercise. So this is may be the reason that all the nutrition are going to my brain and gestate an unstable mind...

Cold is delicate, but cold is emotionless...What a GD world...

How ridiculous it is

I swap the public holiday from tomorrow, so I can have a long weekend...

I forgot since when, I was always asking myself, "What is the ultimate goal in my life?". And the answer is, "To get pay without work". Then I told myself, "Here we go! Aim on your target and strive for it!"

So the day is coming, today I really can get pay without work. I can simply stay at home doing nothing and count my salary increased minute by minute. Ha! It's funny, doing nothing really can earn money without work. But am I happy? No, I don't feel happy. How ridiculous it is!

In the afternoon, I went to Goethe for some information, then I had a tea time in restaurant. Those waiters are working so hard, and I just simply sit aside and watching them. I feel I am being isolated and want to be involved...

May be my ultimate goal has to be changed, "To be involved".

Life has no take-two

Today my mom was just back from Thailand, of course together with a lot of yummy foods, very delicious. Thanks a lot.

My cousin, Namo, is around 4 months. He looks cute and calm, really enjoys his new life which I am very jealous about. He comes to this world later than me around 27 years, I don't feel that he is my cousin but my nephew. I really would love to teach him all what I did learn from this world so that he can have a more charming life. Of course, firstly, he has to understand what I am murmuring now.

A gov. advertisement saying that, "Life has no take-two", it reminds me all the time. So I always ask myself, "Is it the best decision?", "What will happen next if I do this?". I have a feedback system in my brain and it always reviews what I have done in the past, if it is positive, then okay, if negative, my brain will take it out and blame on myself. I don't want to have any wrong decision, but I feel that this feedback system still cannot filter all the failures away, failures still stuck as a part of my life. I think I should take the suggestion from my friend, "If you work on what you always do, then you will get what you always got"... I need a change!

To control or being controlled

I think either one is good for me, just no more looping...

Still have some headache in the morning, just because too much thinking on the stock market. Honestly speaking, there is no productive thinking, just my brain keeps running in a same GD loop...

I always know that I have to overcome this serious problem in my life. But how!?!?

I feel I am over serious on everything, about my family, my career and my love. Really afraid to lose every single thing but always ask for the best, what a F dilemma...

WHY SO SERIOUS!?

Back to battlefield

About the stock market I can't even sleep for few days...

About the stock market I lost money more than I expect...

I understand that I am not smart enough to play this game,

But I have no regret that I back to the battlefield again TODAY.

I did equip myself more than before,

I will get up from where I fell.

This is part of my stupid life, but I know that I am not stupid.