D_d in hospital

Since around 15 days ago, d_d stayed in hospital because all the skin suddenly turns red, legs and feet are also swelled. One of the reason may be due to Psoriasis which he had for a long time. All the virus and anti-virus from Immune system are fighting each other, destructing the equality.

I have visited him once a week, he is getting much better now. Didn't talk much, still keep complaining about his life and doing nothing to help his body. So everytime around 30mins, Mom and I will said goodbye to him.

His attitude and appearance has nothing really shocked me, but all the patients in the same room did. They are all aged man more than 70 years old, most of them have already lost their emotion. Someone open his mouth may be for breathing because his nose connecting a tube for some reason. Someone looks so skinny curling up on the bed as if he is sleeping. Someone keep talking with himself or other people looks like no one visit him for a long time. When I was standing there and looked around the room, the first thing came to my mind was "Somethings afraid or shy to do really have to do it fast, time will never tell you what will going to happen in the next second".

By the way, he may leave hospital today, God try to bless him then...

Happy Thursday

Every Thursday there is a Department head meeting, all the mice will slow down their work and enjoy their own time. Hong Kong mouse did the same. hahahahaha, heheheheh, hohohoho...

Count down 180

I worked in this company about 1 year and 4months. I have never thought that I can work for so long in here. But for many reasons, I really did it.

Be honest, I got more than I expected, may be because this company is not a giant, I have more chances to involve into different situations. I remember more than one time I need to fly over another province to work with supplier for couple days. I remember more than one time I worked OT with our GM and went out for food afterward. I remember more than one time I got frustrated after I argued with our R&D. I really learn a lot about how to run a factory.

Especially a Hong Kong people work in a factory, you will always feel that you are different with others. Everything is controlled by you, everything is just depended on how you handle it. Some people may think this would be a heaven, but on the other hand, the invisible pressure is around you. Everyone is looking at you, if anything is wrong, you may not have second chance.

No matter how good it is, it is just a single step from ladder. One day, we still have to move our leg and step into next stage.

F China block my blog

I don't understand why stupid China always did stupid little tricks on her citizen. Yahoo.hk, Youtube, my blog... all have been blocked one by one.

There is a speaking, "We can lie everyone in a certain period, we can lie someone forever, but we can't lie everyone forever."

But little mouse spirit has never died, we can always find a way to survive.

Right now is 2:31pm, in China shenzhen, using my company to browse any web site I know, including my blog.

Very busy and enriched weekend

Keep working and learning for my life, a lot of new chances and inspiration stimulate my F brain.

no way back, time to go, to go.

My lovely mouse

Hope this F swine flu will be gone very soon, so that my lovely mouse can keep practising his swimming skill.

頭髮亂了

亂了 亂了..

Swimming theory 2

Swimming is a personal activity, no one can share, no one can help. The only thing we can do is well equipped ourselves before we jump into water. Therefore a warm-up is really important to us. As a 28 years old chicken-heart rooster, I always do warm-up before swim. Some people think 10mins warm-up is too boring comparing with enjoying the time with their friends, some people think 10mins warm-up is too long comparing with their limited swimming time. Actually 10mins is just a tiny number in our life but which can refresh our mind and activate our body to do something seriously.

Everyone even myself always believe that we are well equipped, always think that our life experience is enough to understand other people situation, always complain that they are the worst, no one can understand them. But before you let yourselves jump into the water, did you do "warm-up"? Nowaday, the funny thing are people working but don't know what they are working for, people learning but don't know why they have to learn. They work because they want money to buy things comparing with other people around them. They learn because they want to show off with those people around them. They cannot separate greed and interest.

I heard that my fate is missing "water" element, may be that is the reason I love to swim. But swimming really can give me a separate interspace for me to think. During swimming, I will review myself what I did wrong and how I can improve myself. May be I have gained nothing from luck, so I don't believe in luck. Everytimes if the game is not related to money, the result is always equal or better than half-half. But if the game is related to money, basically I will lose. This is the reason why I need to plan my life otherwise I can't see my future according to these general data.

As I said, I am a pessimistic and coward person. I am afraid to talk if I am not familiar, I am afraid to try if I have never tried before, I am afraid to get trouble if this is not related to me, I am afraid to start a relationship if I don't really know the girl. My confidence is inadequate to make any dicision. But swimming can give me that feeling that "just do it". This is the only thing I don't have to ask myself go or not go. This is the only time to switch my position from management to toil and moil. I only have to enjoy my harmonic motion without any decision making, no ethic or materialism conflict.

From the day we swam as a sperm to hit the egg, we had no way to turn back.

Swimming theory 1

Long time ago, I was always chasing the ultimate goal "Get pay without work", thinking how I can just sit there and money keep coming time to time. I remember when I worked in my first job, every time I went to washroom and stood in front of the mirror, I always smiled to myself and said, "I work here can earn around 0.65hkd per min, this time I shit around 10mins, that's mean I do nothing but only shit can also earn 6.5hkd. The company pays me for shit." This is the beginning of "Get pay without work". Later on, I just aimed on this goal thinking how I could expand it.

After 4 years , I am proud to say that I got a great success in this achievement. Right now, I got around double from salary, this company not only pay for my shit, but also pay for chatting in msn, writing on my blog and reading daily news. Around 50% of my "working" time is only worked for myself. I am experienced in how to transfer my workload to other people and get the result. I am experienced in judging and persuading people to work for me. But after these 4 years working as a node, transfering information but not collecting or using it, I feel there is something wrong, this is not the right system I should keep using for my life.

When I was a child during exam period, my parent always said that, "Go get a quiet place and concentrate yourself on study, if you feel tired then go for a nap and study again afterward." So I believe that lock myself up and concentrate on one thing again and again, that will always have a good performance. So I apply this theory into my work, due to my job nature, I have enough time and space to review all the information, I believe I can learn all the knowledge when grab those knowledge from other people.

But this is wrong. I learn things hardly during this period. No matter how fast your brain can run, if you have never involved into the situation, your brain can't learn from it. "Success gives us ambition, failure gives us experience". Only work can give me the feeling in life, only work can stimulate my brain to grow.

Work is like swimming, once you get into the pool, there is no time for you to stop, you have to keep moving your arms and legs until you reach the other side, you can't dive too long if you don't get enough air, you have to keep looking for the direction in case someone cut in, you have to take care the movement to reduce unnecessary energy lost. Only bring yourself into dilemma and feel sweating, then you know that you are really in learning.

Go out now, to be continued...

六四事件

Today is the day all chinese people can't forget and forgive. 20 years was pass but we still haven't heard a single word for apology...

F busy tired troubled day

Today I got a secret information from colleague saying that our company is going to combine two branch into one. Because of the economic or too much unnecessary staffs, we don't know. But what I know is if it is going to be happened, that will be a big thundery washout...

As I know this secret is still a secret, not much rumor around the office, everyone look like in normal.

These days I am piss off about to deal with a stubborn colleague. She is energetic on releasing her emotion. She is hard-working on only what she thinks correct. She is talkative on repeating the same sentences. I spend almost the whole day only dealing with her about some small problem. The main problem is these repeating conversation makes me feel my brain got stuck, can't even turn back on the other things...