Cooking mama 2

During the month without income, I think I really learned a lot and thought a lot and re-constructed my mind a lot. I understood what I have to do now and trusted what I am believing. In the past I was very hesitated to make decision for myself, no matter how tiny it is. Therefore opinions from friends or relatives are really important to me, everything I need an evidence to support. Of course, this is the general theory for everyone to make an low risk decision. But, on the other hand, this is also the low profit decision. People has confident opinions because the idea is not common anymore. They have experience on the pros and cons, so they can advice to me objectively.

I always think that I am pretty smart to solve any problem around my life. Because I am a project engineer, I have to deal with them every single day. But the more I have seen, the more I feel I am still not the perfect one. I am over enjoyed to stay in my own world, I just knew that my own world is too small compare with the real world. There are still too many things I need to catch up in hurry.

It reminds me a saying, "If you do what you always do, you will get what you always get." It is so necessary at this moment in my situation. Because I can already feel the bottleneck in both of my life and career. If I am not going to change it, I can foresee it just can't be changed anymore in a decreasing slope. During these 4 years project engineer life I am not just being a money-slave, I think the most important I have learned is "planning". Eventhough I know that I am standing at a downward situation, I already planned what I need to do next. I won't let myself stand at a bad situation with empty resource. Therefore, this is the time to allocate my resource to do "what I am NOT always do".

Back to the starting point, I am always relied on people opinions or evidences to solve my problem. How to find my own opinion and evidence to support myself is another level. From the project of "cooking mama", my mom was very reluctant to do at the beginning but now she is intend to do, I think she is a really great model to show me that how to do "what I am NOT always do". There is no about profit and loss in our life actually, everything if we did try our best to do, everything is a profit. Of course before making decision we need to think carefully, but we have to classify what is subjective think and what is objective think. Subjective think can only slow down our gain, but objective think can always generate profit.

"Cooking mama" is just a milestone, model, theory whatever to me, how to develop our path still depend on how we make our own decision in the future.