Too innocent

Within these few weeks I had a very strong feeling about my life is really changing. Everything has to take care by myself. Although I still can ask for help from other people, I think this is not going to work anymore.

I remember some elder people said, "Choose a way to make yourself easier which can fit your interest.". When an innocent boy was growing up from a boy to a teenager, he listened to them to enjoy his life in an easier way and fit to his interest. Therefore he had never tasted pressure at all because he was very satisfied to himself. Even there was some external impact to him, he was very easy to forget about it because he knew it won't last for long and the easy way for him to solve it is "forget".

The first impact for him was about HKCEE. At that time he just knew that it was a very important exam, he had to study very hard to get a high mark to continue his education. But what is the purpose behind study he didn't know. The motivation was just coming from the circumstance. Therefore the HKCEE result was below average, the innocent boy can't pick the right school in Hong Kong to continue his education. At this moment he supposed to taste the despair but he did not because he got the protection from parent to continue his education overseas therefore he can continue his easier life to fit his interest.

The second impact was about living alone in Canada for education. Actually it was an luxurious move to study overseas especially in Canada but this innocent teenager had never felt any hard time because he knew all the study fee was sponsor by family, what he had to do was just about choose a way to make himself easier and focusing on his interest. Suppose living alone is a very good chance to manage his personal financial issues and also can taste the real cruel economic world but he did not because the instinct of ask-for-help tell him that he still has the protection on it therefore he can continue his easier life to fit his interest.

The third impact was about buying stocks in stock market. Be honest stock market is just about a big casino. It doesn’t have an absolute right conclusion but always about pros and cons. Not sometime but most of the time you can’t just rely on the P/L report from company but these data somehow are essential for you to make a decision. Because the innocent guy was grow up from a straight way with pre-built direction he didn’t know how to choice a direction for himself, he was so frustrate at that moment. He was kind of reluctance to do data comparison on stock market because he already get used to wait for some other people tell him how to do but not make a decision by himself. At last he lost some money on stock market the main reason was he can’t handle the pressure of the fluctuate market without direction. He can’t stand for keep losing for certain period. So he decided to pick a Fund manager to handle his money therefore he can continue his easier life to fit his interest.

Right now, this F innocent guy really has to clean up his F mind and delete all the lazy genes. He felt very sorry and guilt to all of the people who love him.